So today between class, I stopped at home to nap and eat some food, nothing out of the usual here. Due to the simple equation that Eating + Teeth = Nasty Crap in your Teeth I decided to brush. However, upon looking in the mirror … “holy crap?! my hair is shiny and full of life.

…”Vivacious even”.

I found my hair to be in an almost unnatural state … it was like on TV shampoo commercials, if only for this short period of time.

Anyway this self-grooming subject. How about art?

Today I was in class and a teacher said something about having a certain skill (unwrapping UVW meshes) would “get you paid” and I mumbled as I often do seated in the back of the room, “But money isn’t really that important!” which met to the objections of a couple of my peers. “I like money because it gets me food” one replied. Now I didn’t bring this up because of any feelings of inadequacy with this subject, but it sort of bothers me that money has that much priority.

It’s not a naive viewpoint … I’m sure the most of us after graduating college will get some sort of job that will pay for bills, fun, and the future. More money makes those things much easier to do? yes, but after a certain point it’s importance should be put on the back burner. If we are developing our skills to be artists in the future, we shouldn’t expect that we will still have the broke college-student lifestyle. What am I saying? We more than likely won’t have to worry as much as we do now about money, once we are professionals … we should groom ourselves to be passionate about our art, we should be telling ourselves that we want to make the next truly original idea. If you go through school worrying about how much money you’re going to have after school, you’re still gonna worry about it when you’re out.

Even within the context of a commercial art field, simply worrying about doing the job, getting your check, shouldn’t be what the job is about. I hope that it’s really about creativity above all else. The thought of having financial security and expensive toys is an enticing one, that has crossed my mind, I admit … but, I will not give up my expression to have the nice apartment, the nice car and whatever.

I saw this guy in class drawing a futuristic comic-book warrior in a sketchbook. it was well drawn and neat … but I could not sense his personality through it.

Hope keeps me going … I hope that my belief on expression will bring me somewhere happy in life (because happiness is most important) and I love being at this school, but I wonder if that my approach will be enhanced here.

Again, what do I mean? I want my booth at portfolio review to be unlike anyone else’s … in fact I want my own room for my art. I don’t want to be defined by what other people are doing. I’m also nervous about what the portfolio classes will lead to. I don’t want what I believe to be good art to be tossed aside because it doesn’t meet the goal that is “selling myself” to employers. Sure, I want a job, but I want to be hired by the company that will see a painting that has nothing to do with animation at my table, understand that I can think originally, and that I also have a strong design sense. I want them to see me.

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